I do not feel that the Violin and Piano Sonata had enough time to engage with the materials I wrote and it does not relate with the spectral world and knowledge I am interested for my research project. In a way, I started to consider that, all the material I have already for the piece needed to be thought before writing a single note on Sibelius software. Also, it seems that I have no connection with spectral music.
What I do not want to do is what I did on my Master’s degree, where I wrote all my music without thinking in what I was doing. In a way, I am interested in write music - is what I like to do -, but for a better comprehension and quality of the music I write, I need to engage more with a sort of context in my music, I want to be able to speak about my music, knowing all the materials, gestures, events, ideas and material I wrote.